Sunday, August 31, 2003
tHiS iS hOw i ReAlLy FeEl
Gray:
You poor, depressed child. A rain cloud seems to
follow you everywhere. The worst has always got
to happen doesn't it? Life is miserable.
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there are many loopholes around here; 8/31/2003 09:04:00 PM
whatever lorz.. i just suck in everything...
sighz... i've lost hope.. lots of hope...
well.. went out wif that little girl..
[shall call her little girl.. sound so cute=]
anw.. we were supposed to be studying..
but got chased away in e end.. but we dont care=)
we tok about lots of stuff..
i lyk donno what to say...
feel lyk saying something...
but nothing comes out of f*cking mouth...
sighz... what does life means to me lorz??
so damn f*ckingly donno what now.. yupz....
at arnd 4 something.. walked arnd j8....
keep walking in and out of mini toons..
e people there were staring at us k..
we keep making hell lot of noise..
kept talking about stuff..
as usual..
i kept quiet and pretend as if i got no comment and i'm blur.. yah...
then on my way home..
started thinking about what we were toking about..
then i kept thinking..
lots of stuff lorz... haiz.. my life is just lyk that what..
what to do lorz....
i'm just toooooooo negative lerz...
wo zhen de mei you hua shou lerz....
i'm just too used to be left alone lerz....
yupz.. its lyk everytime i go town or something..
i'll be lyk alone lorz.. i dont even dare to open my freaking mouth to tok on the phone..
my mouth wld be -zip*.. yupz... i'm just too used to being quiet and all ks...
some bitch keep saying i tok hell lot this few days when some sucker just let me leave in hell alone... and onli a few people can visit me.. lyk f*ck lorz...!!!!! sighz.. what the f*cking hell am i thinking now lorz... i hate this stupid brain of mine!! why must i be born in this world?!? its a freakingly big fat mistake!!! coz every f*cking problem will just happily come to me..
sighz.. i'm confused!! so confused! is confusion my key?? haiz...
i already have enough of that bitch already k..
this person i once called friend had turn into my enemy.. sighz...
there are many loopholes around here; 8/31/2003 06:25:00 PM
haha.. woke up at lyk 1pm..
decided not to go for tuition..
even if i go..
i'll be freakingly late coz tuition starts at 11!!!!
hahha.. i noe.. i verri bang=)
haha.. going j8 later..
studying at mos burger..
and i'm still broke=(
decided to borrow money from my maid=|..
sighz.. leter she also go broke how=(..
haix.. having gastric now..
so saddenning k..
watever.. i'm lyk freakingly dead..
i left all my books in skl!! how to study!??!..
haix.. watever lah.. i'm darn hungry..=(
there are many loopholes around here; 8/31/2003 01:40:00 PM
woke up arnd 11 something..
left for town at about 3:30..
wanted to go for service..
but i'm suppose to meet unc and aunt at 6 at lido..
so cannot.. wanted to reject lorz..
but it'll be too obvious.. yupz..
i gotta be EXTRA careful now.. yupz..
ahhh... my bible got confiscated!!! SIGHS!
watever lorz...
ermz.. walked arnd wisma then went into this shop..
ermz.. i think its called joy city..
yupz.. damn cool lorz.. hehx..
stayed there lyk for 1 hr..
then e guy kept telling the woman that i might run away with any things[steal]in canto..
and he tot i dont understand..
stupid lor he..
coz i stayed there for 1 hr??
and coz i was holding quite lot of stuff?!?..
lame can..
den ermz.. spent lyk 20 over dollars den e guy song ler yi kou qi..
sighz.. LAME!
ermz.. went to meet sis..
den we walked arnd taka[kino] she paid for some of my things coz i onli hav $5 left.. yupz..
went to mos burger den to heeren..
wanted to take neoprint but mei you qian..
urmz.. played time crisis at e arcade there..
played till i left with 55 cents..
den dowan play lerz..
took free vanilla coke den set off to lido..
watch the medallion..
it is quite cool and quite farnie lorz..
and i lost my wallet!!!
after donno how many million time of crying..
sis told me that i was with her all along!!
wah kao lorz.. forget it!! shit!
sighz..damn bored now.. nvm..
there are many loopholes around here; 8/31/2003 01:30:00 AM
Friday, August 29, 2003
todae? oh ya.. fridae.. teachers dae=)
yupz.. ermz.. in the morning was tired tired.. yupz.. took a taxi with mq and her sister.. yepz.. ThANk yOu=).. yupz.. anw... the driver is koyak koyak lorz.. sheesshh... hack lah.. anw.. ermz.. reached school about 645 around there.. yupz.. once i stepped in.. i see donno how many bitches.. yupz.. but i dont care lorz.. its not as if they can eat me ritez?.. anw.. ermz..went to e hall.. had e handing over ceromony thingy.. quite cool=) den its e kick boxing thingy.. yupz.. mummy rawks=) anw.. er.. then went back to class.. see donno how many f*cking bitch.. den i just leave class lorz.. had e voting thingy.. laughed lyk siao.. then wun kai got to stop me from moving and laughing=) hehx.. abit the maluating=) haha.. watever..
recess.. was darn long.. donno why too.. erm.. gave jie my heart.. then went to mini forum.. sat dere doing crap. den mood started to go down.. yupz.. cried when liyana played this piece.. yupz.. think it rawks=)
ermz.. concert started with the crappy PSG chair person.. she crapped alot.. try to be farnie but not.. sat at 1g1 dere coz my class just totally suck! except for a few.... lyk judy=).. kks.. watever... den started screaming and cheering for teachers.... den e dances totally rawks=) actually... everything rawks!! =).. except for my class 1.. yupz.. i kept laughing for no reason coz i needed to give em encouragement.. yupz.. it was darn lame.. dont like.. -pukes-.. yupz..
after concert.. ermz.. rushed to rg after e handing over of prezent frm track to teachers.. yupz.. den took taxi.. uh huh.. i'm broke now.. everyc\body better wish me all the best for the nxt 3 daez.. i onli have $5.. sighz..nvm... starve to death onlie.. yepz...
there are many loopholes around here; 8/29/2003 06:44:00 PM
Monday, August 25, 2003
sighz. todae woke up quite late. yupz. damn tired slept like 3am last nite. thinking bout lots of stuff. yupz. had geog,PE, den skipped recess.. had art then CME.. ermz.. mdm yap was having sore throat.. and our class still make her angry.. so she kinda left the classroom with a final slam.. yup.. we started doing this sorry card for her.. coz we were guity.. yupz..anw.. had netball practice.. ermz.. it totally rawks? haha.. nvm.. anw.. i was trying to make this heart thing lorz.. sighz.. anw.. i lost my f*cking nike bottle again! f*ck lorz! isghz... i'm a bitch.. yes.. i noe..
there are many loopholes around here; 8/25/2003 09:45:00 PM
Sunday, August 24, 2003
ok. watever. blogger is screwed.. sighz...
**He has not despised my cries of deep despair;
He has not turned and walked away.
When I cried to Him, he Heard and came.
--Psalm 22:24 **
there are many loopholes around here; 8/24/2003 07:29:00 PM
ermz.. woke up early.. kinda woke on the wrong side of the bed.. yup.. woke up at lyk 6 something.. started staring at space thought lots of thing.. yup.. then went for tuition.. came home.. went out again... lots of thing happen b4 that.. but i dowan to sae.. yup.. anw.. cutted my freaking curly hair.. that auntie cut til lyk donno wad.. so now its kinda short./. yup.. planning to put on lotsa clip tomoro to make sure i dont look like my bitching auntie.. yupz.. its freaking straight too.. donno wad to do.. sighz.. nvm... now i onli have 9 letters in my head.. sighz...
-* my life is like a living hell.making me fell so hopeless and all. if only i could turn back time to choose not to be born in this world again *-
there are many loopholes around here; 8/24/2003 07:13:00 PM
Saturday, August 23, 2003
ermz..woke up lyk 555... den prayed in the car that i can find that thing i've lost.. reached skl about 635.. damn dark.. then started redoing the banner thing.. totally suckx man.. watever.. bu xiang kan dao ta de chou lian.. watever lorz.. duty till 130.. was walking arnd instead of doing duty.. muahahhaa.. walked arnd with sweetheart donno how many time lerz=) did lots of crap.. all my henne keep getting destoyed.. sighz.. den left skl at 420 something.. took a cab down to church..den went home by taxi 2..ok.. now i'm VERY broke.. sighz.. $2 onli=(
there are many loopholes around here; 8/23/2003 08:18:00 PM
Friday, August 22, 2003
urghh.. todae is totally f*ucked up can... f*ck it lah.. stupid f*cking class of mine!!![no offence]
hey [s]hole
go ahead and blame me for everything for all i care!!! everything not nicely done is me... yup... wow.. go ahead and blow ur f*cking temper at me.. go ahead!!! well.. why must u talk behind my shitty back when u can just spit at me for all i f*cking care?!? u sellfish little brat.. cant get enough of attention izzit?!? must u gather and make people talk about me?!? i can just help u do that by calling myself a f*cking bitch noe.. yar.. go do ur f*cking stuff and leave the setting up of store to the both of us!!! what kind of a human u are lorz... shit u! yar.. try to be there for me when u actually need me to help u to0k behind my back!?!? f*ck you manz.. i got f*cking shit from my parents for coming home around 750 something just to set the f*cking store.. well.. though the idea is mine.. u agreed to it to k.. so u cant possibly just push every f*cking blame on me! well.. the setting up of store u totally didnt help at all!! and u still call urself a ___-_______
wat a disgrace manz..... yup.. and u can still go to peoples house!! yar.. u noe wat? that shit thing.. donnit alot of people to do lorz.. and buying more of that puny little shit is wasting money!! trying to get a huge variety of colours then u sae lah!! don need to make the whole f*cking grp pay ritez? i donno wats wrong with you lorz!! shit u!@!
sighz.. feeling shitter now..watever lorz.. todae is not my dae.. if that thing is relly missing.. i'll just hold all responsoibility coz its my fault!!damn!
there are many loopholes around here; 8/22/2003 08:56:00 PM
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
haha.. todae netball was lyk wowwie.. yepz.. during skl time was damn down.. home econs went to library.. yupz... i was bored lyk a donno wad.. then i was depressed.. thinking of stuff i shouldnt be thinking of.. ermz.. then after skl.. i toked to may.. practically told her how i felt or something.. coz i needed to tok to some1.. almost cried.. but dont dare.. yupz.. ermz.. netball totally rawks.. then after that the bead thing was screwed.. yupz..
there are many loopholes around here; 8/20/2003 09:41:00 PM
Monday, August 18, 2003
sighz..blogging is becoming more and more boring.. sighz=( shall go find black black background..=( sighz.. cant stop sigh~ing.. donno wads wrong wif me=(ahhhh... i'm suppose to study chinese or slp.. my CHINESE!!!! i tomoro sure die 1.. my chinese totally suck! bleach=\ i cant remember aniting...!! i need to memorize.. but i cant!!! ahhhh.. watever.. lame=( shit! science too!!!!! bleach=\.. watever.=|
there are many loopholes around here; 8/18/2003 05:29:00 PM
Saturday, August 16, 2003
ermz.. woke up lyk 9 with a bad headache.. wanted to pon piano.. but coz of smart smart me.. forgetted to leave e hse earlier then mum.. i ended up taking a freaking taxiand getted myself into fat trouble with mum and teach.. yupz.. coz i totally didnt bring any books[i lost interest coz of that eeky sucker.. bleach] anw.. she kinda give me black face.. but........ i ren k... i ren ler veh long k.. for abt 30 mins.. then rushed dwn to take taxi frm taka.. but lots of ppl.. so walked dwn to wisma.. yupz.. reached e church abt 3.. was reading book.. abit depressed.. ermz.. went to chope sit.. so everybody can sit.. wanted to take up 2 rows.. but took 1 instead.. but kang kang hao.. so mei wen ti=) e king and i rawks=) veri nice=) hehe.. made me cry=) lots of time.. den e more jasmine prayed for me.. e more i cried.. kinda cry until cant stop.. sighz.. then pastor suzy came.. toked.. den another person came.. pryed again.. i cried more~er..yupz.. really enjoyed myself=) i love that church=) its much nicer than qx's church..[no offence..sori] yupz.. cried on my wae home.. then it started to rain.. i dis kind of smart person.. supposed to get well soon.. but i ended up singing and crying and walking SLOWLY in the rain.. its veri fun=) but i felt better when i came home.. aniwae.. i'm still sick=) yeah! ok.. watever.. i'm nt supposed to.. sighz.. think i'll go see the doc again.. sighz..
there are many loopholes around here; 8/16/2003 10:11:00 PM
Friday, August 15, 2003
sighz.. me and my nose, head,throat.. yupz.. so not well now..
hope i can jian chi dao tuesdae.. yupz..
there are many loopholes around here; 8/15/2003 06:26:00 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2003
this few daes its been mask mask mask and more mask.. yepz.. anw.. CA tomoro lorz.. i donno wat will happen to me .. yepz.. i'm lyk chao sick now.. running nose here and dere.. and cough.. cool ritez? kks.. gtg.. heard that theres some new virus.. some computer de.. oh yar.. DONT ever download [mblast.exe].. got virus and e threat is high.. yupz.. kks.. take care=)
there are many loopholes around here; 8/14/2003 08:58:00 PM
Monday, August 11, 2003
ok.. let me see.. in the morning was bad-mooding..
yar.. den during pbl presentation.. i fell asleep..
pbl was frakingly screwed.. kks.. watever..
practically pissed me off.. recess was a joker.. well..
i hid behind that favourite mask of mine.. but i
somehow refused to take it off..[sighz..]then arnd 1:15..
went to e toilet.. kinda cried.. coz i took off that mask..
not in frint of judy la duh.. as in.. in e cubicle.. yepz..
den lunch.. i hid behind that freaking mask of mine..
trying to act crazy and rude and so not me.. wat the..
i shld get a life.. [sighz].. donno wads wrong with me..
think i totally suck! took of that freaking mask on my wae
up.. yepz.. den depressed all the wae.. cried again in e bus..
why must i hide behind that freaking mask?! it totally suck!
why cant i just be myself?!!='( ok.. watever.. i'm just freaking
useless!
there are many loopholes around here; 8/11/2003 06:30:00 PM
You're the sad smile,the one that regrets nearly
everything and is constantly wondering about
what could have been.You're not happy with your
situation and usually blame yourself because of
the bad things that have happened.Cheer up.
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there are many loopholes around here; 8/11/2003 06:20:00 PM
Saturday, August 09, 2003
sighz.. think now its just diary diary diary..yepz.. but i'll keep the bloggeing coming alone for abt once a week or more? i donno.. its time for quiz=)kks.. watever.. i'm just shit! anw..
yesterdae
ermz.. national celebrations.. totally suck.. lame lame plus lame.. yepz.. aiya.. no mood mahz.. went to skl wif wrong dress code.. gotta borrow yh's blouse in e end.. ermz.. damn big.. yar.. den concert was cool.. except e josef that part.. coz it totally do not rawk at all.. ermz.. so far the ONLY nice programmes are the band and the dances=) the dance totally rawks rawks rawks.. yepz.. but judy left me all alone before the dance.. ermz.. during the [we will get there] song when everybody stand up.. yepz.. through out the whole concert.. i've been talking to myself.. as in total silence..then towards the end when everybody stand up again..jud came to tok.. well.. i've been going to cry lorz.. so kinda told her to get lost[sorry jud.. didn't mean it].. den after e whole concert end.. ermz.. i went behind.. then i started tearing till my eyes turn red.. was trying to find delia.. cant find her.. den quiet quiet all the wae.. went to east coast.. cycled..den went home.. yepz..ermz.. reached home about 9 coz i pei~ed yh take dinner.. arnd 10 something.. mum locked her out.. threatened me not to open e door for her.. den i started crying..so i sneaked down to open door for her.. mum found out.. whacked me.. then kick her out again..donno whether she come in or sleep outside..-big sigh-...
[[when i need a shoulder to lean on or some1 to comfort me..but nobody was there for me..when they still say they'll be there.. -big big sigh-..*sob*]]
today
think my mum let her come in todae.. den i on e tv coz i wanna watch e ppg show..sis joined me.. den after pokemon i off~ed e tv.. she on again.. mum came down.. scolded me.. den kick sis out again.. i got fad-up.. left e house.. den mum called me.. i told her i go out shan shan xin.. den she told me to come home b4 5.. i was home before that.. she told me to pack my room.. den my sis shouted at me.. my mum didnt do anything to her.. den when i shout at sis cause she took my precious comics/things without my permission.. mum came to slap me.. i mean.. they lyk suddenly gang up against me.. sighz.. nvm.. think its just me.. i'm always at fault.. coz i mum keep saying that if she dont deal with my sis.. she'll just end up lyk me.. i mean if she wants to say its my fault.. she can just say so ritez? she donnit to go round the bush lorz.. sighz..
there are many loopholes around here; 8/09/2003 08:26:00 PM
What's your usual [mood]?
Which [Finding Nemo] characters are you?
Is the glass half full or half empty?
Which [Rainbow Colours] are you?
Are you easily stressed?
there are many loopholes around here; 8/09/2003 07:16:00 PM
Sunday, August 03, 2003
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIXIN=)
there are many loopholes around here; 8/03/2003 10:14:00 PM