Tuesday, September 30, 2003

todae was madness.. waited PATIENTLY for my sim card to be registered..
yup.. kept oning e hp.. then after lec FINALLY can use ler.. jumped arnd lyk mad pig=) muackx* ya.. and great riana person donno get kidnapped to where ler.. i cant find her k.. she suppose to follow me to do x-ray=\.. met mommy at e bus stop.. she was kinda down? i donno.. sighz.. anw.. i gotta treat june in e end coz miss riana xiao jie disappear!=\.. nvm.. at least she is drinking..[erbx] kks.. whatever.. im siao now.. kept changing hp wif mum.. think she is pissed.. kept asking me whats my final decision =| hehx.. so decided to take e 8310.. but its my big sis hp.. reminds me of her=|.. sighz.. maebe ill change it back to 2100.. not too much memories u noe=).. hehx.. kks.. whatever..

there are many loopholes around here; 9/30/2003 10:30:00 PM

heya.. donno whats wrong with me.. think im blardie down.. yuppers.. sighz...nvm.. i think my bo*bs are gonna suffocate.. kks.. what ever.. im being geeross..=p.. kks.. nvm.. science now.. cme paper later.. totally nv learn at all k.. sighz.. oh ya LIT LECTURE!!! f*ck.. k.. watever.=|

there are many loopholes around here; 9/30/2003 11:51:00 AM

Monday, September 29, 2003

todae?oh. cramp.. bad cramp.. den was depress coz of many things. after skool felt depresser.. i really want to help her.. but she have to tell me whats wrong.. sighz.. no point telling urself that ure ok..u have to prove itdear.. sighz.. cried lyk donno how many times.. erm.. collected my sim card todae.. mum told me tt i can take her 2100 for the time being.. then she'll get me the 7250i but i have to pay 2/3 of e price which is lyk $502.. yup.. todae e "x-ray" place was close.. gg tomoro=|

there are many loopholes around here; 9/29/2003 07:14:00 PM

Sunday, September 28, 2003

yesterdaes day was screwed thanx to e stupid fat ass and my blardie f*cking self.. yup.. was hell late for paper 2 what.. totally great rite?!
oh.. todae was another hell f*cked up great day too what.. it totally rawks lyk f*cking shit k.. I LOST MY F*CKING HELL HP IN THE F*CKING TOILET! totally great rite?! and now my parents refused to go get the new sim card and if i 1 a phone i got to pay for it myself + no allowance for 2 weeks! yup.. great! im hell going for a f*cking diet! great! my f*cking dream came true!! f*ck lah! TSK!

there are many loopholes around here; 9/28/2003 11:20:00 PM

Friday, September 26, 2003

todae is boring day..
was listening to discman for donno how long.. yup..
f*cked up councellors from my class wanted to book me..
coz last lesson they were f*ckers..
blardie f*ckers!
ok.. nvm.. im just pissed off and depressed.. sighz...
tomoro exam.. i better erm.. study? ya.

there are many loopholes around here; 9/26/2003 07:32:00 PM

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

i think mommy rawks!
yup.. have been there for me all the time=)
i love mommy=)
yup.. thankew mommy=) =hugs=

we are so drifted ler.. donno wad to do...think its me and my f*cked up attitude..
im becoming more and more alone now...yup.. sighz...

think its just me.. everything had been happening coz of me.. im a jinx.. i told u! i am!sighz..

there are many loopholes around here; 9/24/2003 10:38:00 PM

sighz.. exams are coming.. i'm still slacking? yup.. confirm get kick out de.. donnit to sae i oso noe lorhz.. its just this 6 sense i have.. yup.. pass few daes went home quite early.. to do what? sleep till 8 after crying.. everydae is the same.. except todae=) ok lah.. cried in the bus=\.. fine hmpth* this is so siao.. donno what to blog.. .::-sigh-::.

there are many loopholes around here; 9/24/2003 09:29:00 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

todae.. is shit.. came home early.. started crying again.. sighz.. whatever lah.. yesterdae was ego in the morning.. afternoon felt depresser.. then went home.. locked myself in the room.. totally didnt eat anything yseterdae other than milo? ya.. onlie milo.. i just sleep and cry and sleep and cry.. lyk that enough ler.. yup=|todae.. ate lots of stuff.. not taking dinner later.. ya..kks.. nvm.. bye.

there are many loopholes around here; 9/16/2003 05:56:00 PM

Sunday, September 14, 2003

sighz.. i did the right thing.. and i get the right punishment.. sighz...they are not at home now.. kinda coz they want to buy a new tv.. yup.. tv is spoilt.. yup.. sighz..
i'm not worth to be anybody's sister or daughter.. pls disown me.. i've given up.. i dont want to try anymore..trying suck...the more i try the more pain i feel.. its no use.. nobody will understand.. everything is always too complicating for me..=*(sighz.. all this sound lame.. but i think i'm serious.. i really dont feel lyk trying anymore.. really.. sigh.. im lame=\

there are many loopholes around here; 9/14/2003 02:02:00 PM

Friday, September 12, 2003

= why does nobody care when i needed them the most...
= nobody knows how terrible i feel...
= everybody seems as if they cant be bothered when they say that they'll be there for me
= everybody lie to me about the meaning of love
= none have proved the REAL meaning of love...
= making me feel as if i'm not worth to be love
= nobody seems to bother whether i'm there or not..
= even if i'm standing right in front of them they will just think that i totally dont exsits at all...
= making me think that life has no meaning at all..
= that i should just die and rot in hell..
= though i say i'm ok..that doesnt mean i'm always fine...because i'm never fine..
= EVERYTHING IS A LIE!
= WHY WONT PEOPLE JUST TELL THE TRUTH?
= WHY CANT PEOPLE JUST TELL ME?!!
= BEING HIDDEN FROM THE TRUTH SUCK!
= why?!!

* why does things dont always happen the way we think of it but the opposite?!!
* why?!
* like that very fun is it?!
* have anybody ever considered how i will feeL?!
* HAVE THEY EVER THOUGHT OF WHAT HAS HURT ME?!
* HAVE THEY EVER?!!!

~ when others are not happy..their closes will be ther for them..
~ have anybody ever realised that i was once there?!
~ feeling the same sadness as others?
~ but why do i feel worse?!
~ because i dont get the same treatment..
~ i get treatment physically
~ why wont people understand ?!

sighz.. well.. this is my life.. what can i do about it other than letting it be controlled...='( i cry day and night.. hoping for a miracle.. a miracle when people show that they care instead of just saying it.. yup..i'll cry till my eyes pop out.. until i receive my miracle..or i'll never stop crying.. ever again..i should just bottle everything up and just let it kill me.. yup..=|

there are many loopholes around here; 9/12/2003 07:34:00 PM

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

ermz.. past 2 daes.. its been after skl.. go town.. yup.. except for mondae.. went home then mum brought me to town.. yup.. wanted to watch pirates of the caribbean yesterdae.. but suddenly no mood so decided to sell the tix.. i took lyk less than 3 mins but the stupid person take more than half an hour to sell the tickets for me.. sighz.. ermz.. bought shorts yesterdae.. realised that its too big for me..haha.. i kinda over estimated my size.. yupz.. gonna go change it todae if possible=).. ermz.. later hav bloody hell english.. sighz.. watever.. english exam in 3 weeks time and the rest in 4 weeks time.. sighz... i need to do well.. thats why i totally didnt go out todae=) yay! haha..i'm damn hungry.. tink i gonna hav gastric.. at home hav lotsa things happenning.. sighz.. headache manz.. irritating.. ermz.. tomoro hav consultation.. yup.. den planning to stay in skl the whole dae.. haha.. yup.. i tink i'm wae siao.. bought shoe yesterdae.. it totally make my fool look hell big can.. yee.. but its gray in stead of white=) yippee.. but i lyk this blue colour shoe.. but its lyk $129 over.. so i kinda cannot buy.. parents hav this budget thingy.. and i need to save $$.. haiz.. kks.. i'm hell bored now.. toodles..

there are many loopholes around here; 9/10/2003 12:43:00 PM

Sunday, September 07, 2003

blogger was cock yesterdae... don feel lyk toking about yesterdae.... all i can sae is erm.... went town about 3 something.. went to cine with germaine,riana,su hong, geneveive,krystle and may.. ate at yoshi.. den may and krystle left.. ermz.. went to cathay.. bought tix to legally blonde.. went to heeren.. took neoprints..[shall scan it somedae..] went back to cine.. watch the movie.. jie ended up sleeping.. the show was darn lame... den went to heeren to shop.. wanted to take a bus home.. but after waiting for 34 mins.. i ran to catch a taxi.. reached home at 820 something.. kks.. blardie screwed now.. my parents are coming back.. sighz...

there are many loopholes around here; 9/07/2003 10:54:00 AM

Friday, September 05, 2003

.::feeling as if there is no love in the air left for me::.

ok watever.. trying to cool down now.. todae was ok.. yupz.. onlie what little girl said just now pissed me off.. yup.. left me thinking of how to help her.. yup.. yue xiang yue depressed.. yep.. i'm lyk that what.. no cure de.. ermz.. tomoro is carnival.. sure die1 k..[ touch wood].. yupz..anw.. lets tok about my nephew=)ermz... name: qiuqiu yupz.. i think thats all i noe=) yupz.. ehz.. he damn cute can.. yuanyuan pangpang de=)
too ke ai lerz=) todae.. mummy attempted to throw me away!!!ahhh... how can she do that!! nvm.. *sniff*

there are many loopholes around here; 9/05/2003 09:04:00 PM

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

ermz.. recap of the dae..

er.. morning was feeling darn guilty.. then during PE.. went to delia's class.. stayed dere till recess end.. when i was in delia's class.. was trying to break the pk.. then break till donno wat.. instead of diagonal.. become horizontal instead.. yupz.. so my thumb mow is injured=) 1st time bleed lots.=) ben lai dowan wash de.. but delia insists..
yupz.. ermz.. then started crying after reading _'s letter.. yupz.. sighz.. ran up to class and just couldnt stop.. eyes turn red lorz=| as in VERY red.... yupz.. den donno wad..
oratorical fell asleep for the whole thing=) lit lecture was trying to waste paper... netball prac was feeling darn depressed... now listening to jay's song=) track 5.. donno whats the title.. its gonna be my 3rd jay song thats gonna make me cry everytime i'm sad..
just sad yup..

there are many loopholes around here; 9/02/2003 09:20:00 PM

Monday, September 01, 2003

ermz.. came back from town a while ago..
ermz.. watched [the league] just now..
itx freakingly cool can.. its a TWIST=)
yupz.. a good 1 too=)
unexpected climax=) and a funnie mysterious ending=) yupz..
it totally rawks..
i totally wont mind watching it again=)
anw.. ermz.. was freakingly depressed..
walked arnd town..
from here to there and back there and to the other places.. kks..
watever.. it just suck lah.. ya... saw quite alot of people todae..
yupz.. was trying to hide away from mum..
but it turned out to be she hiding away from me when we were at kino.. yup..
little sis kept staring at her and laughing..
coz they both too chio and cute lerz![that was my little sis]
yup.. ermz.. then went to meet parents at lido at 7 something..
mum shopped at mango and i shopped for socks=)
wanted to get sports bra but mum sae too far lerz...
sighz.. started msging ~*mummy*~.. felt..
ABIT better.. but still worse than ever..
but mummy still e best=)
she totally rawks=) haha..
watever... yupz.. i'm just a loner.. remember that..=[

there are many loopholes around here; 9/01/2003 08:51:00 PM