Tuesday, December 30, 2003
[im hurt and i donno why.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/30/2003 10:40:00 PM
hmm.. went out today. yup. lots of things happening. dont want to say eh. yup. sigh. came back from the dr (: at arnd 9+ yup. dr found out. i denied didnt want anybody to know. parents will kill eh=\ yup. sigh. did it again. not it as in whatever thing you people are thinking. not cut not anything. yup. just did what the dr told me not to do which he suspect. yupyup. lets see what illness eh.. er.. food poisoning. now better le. er.. high fever. yup. not very high la.. 38 only. yup. hmm.. sigh..
[im glad you turn up. or else it would be worse.]
there are many loopholes around here; 12/30/2003 10:34:00 PM
there are many loopholes around here; 12/30/2003 11:24:00 AM
Monday, December 29, 2003
hmm.. lotsa things happenning eh.. hmm.. yesterday arh.. nothing much lorh.. just went to bugis to eat this chao lao ya ramen. then i dropped that thing. it was like damn fragile. this guy go step on it. totally fcuk up can. cried in pubic. fcuk. feeling lame eh.then to queensway then back home. yup. was having fever yea. parents think i faked it. told me to eat panadol. hmm.. yup. ate chilli crab for dinner totally dont give a damn can. hmm.. today.. slept at 3+ was doing the candy canes eh. think it suck . but i took quite a long time eh. since 10+ cried larh huh. feeling chao silly. bah=\ hmm.. then trng. was hyper eh. kept singing and jumping ;) fun.. hehx.. kept laughing at something else too..haha..hmm..nvm.er..ya.. then was discussing bout some stuff with lee after trng. dad came. yea. came home. cried again. beh=\ feeling tired now. having headache. sigh. nvm.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/29/2003 03:41:00 PM
Saturday, December 27, 2003
there are many loopholes around here; 12/27/2003 11:03:00 PM
hmm.. went to school this morning. hb woke me up. hmm.. at least i can watch my powerpuff girl. yup. watched ppg and pokemon. then ran to bus stop cause i was late eh.. then er.. went to school. they dont have the lit book =\ yup.. can die le eh.. then erm.. totally was hur. yup. hmm.. went town.. walked arnd fareast. to wisma.to taka. to wisma. to taka. to cine. took neos. then to heeren. walked to plaza sing. ate at mos. then went to jp. dont have candy cane. took 174 45mins bus trip to bukit timah plaza. then went to kingalbert park there. they dont have. walked to bukit timah plaza. oso dont have. erm.. went to bishan there. they dont have . by the time i reach united square.. at novena there. its like 8+ le. dad killed me.he came to fetch me lorh.. went to giant cause i gave up e. ate there. then went to shop at giant. shit lorh. they have like donno how many million boxes there lorh.. if i know i should go there first before touring arnd sing.=\ hmm.. yup. then bought alot. dont think i giving cookie le lah.. i scared you ppl get food poisoning=\.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/27/2003 10:53:00 PM
Friday, December 26, 2003
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there are many loopholes around here; 12/26/2003 10:29:00 PM
Thursday, December 25, 2003
hmm.. packing room now. hehx.. have donno how many piles le.. gonna dump it into the garbage bag(: hehe.. hmm.. gotta finish homework later. yup.hmm.. no mood eh..=\ sigh..
there are many loopholes around here; 12/25/2003 10:24:00 PM
hmm..merry christmas
there are many loopholes around here; 12/25/2003 02:15:00 PM
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
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Tuesday, December 23, 2003
hmm.. went ntuc just now. no candy canes. rubbish. ok. nvm. not in the mood. falling*
there are many loopholes around here; 12/23/2003 11:25:00 PM
hmm.. gonna make cookies later(: yup.. and make my reindeer candycanes.. yup. sigh. but my reindeer abit siao de. yup. very big red nose(:hehx. sigh..
there are many loopholes around here; 12/23/2003 07:17:00 PM
haha.. my aircon too cute le..the guy is like repairing my mum's rooms air con. and my aircon happens to be leaking instead.. haha..(: hmm.. 2 more days to christmas and im living in hell=\
there are many loopholes around here; 12/23/2003 10:58:00 AM
hmm.. woke up 7 today.. had bad stomach ache. and yar.. neck still hurts like shit. cant move at all? hmm.. yup. i think. erm.. then.. yup. continued to sleep didnt go for trng in the end. sigh. hmm.. woke up at bout 10+ lyanne called me. told me bad news? hmm.. im quite angry.. nvm.. i'll still trying to get him.. if he says can.. means can... the school is just rubbish. yup. dont listen to them(: hmm.. might be going town later.. but i need money! im broke k! rubbish la.. sigh.. hmm.. gonna die le.. lalala.. i want to get presents!! but where do i get the money??? not enough time to work? argh... im going to my grave le la.. my christmas!! sigh..
there are many loopholes around here; 12/23/2003 10:54:00 AM
Sunday, December 21, 2003
sigh.. morning. was scrwed la.. yup.. woke up with a somewhat bad dream.. cause the dream was screwed. its all fake! what promote me. rubbish lor. more like fried me.sigh.. anw.. went to eat breakfast. uhm.. payed for it myself even tho im with my parents? hmm.. yup.. then went to bibi&baba at isetan. cos sis neede to buy skl u. erm.. then.. yup.. came home. broke my hp into 2 pieces by accident. as in the back came out la. mum didnt cared[as usual.nothing surprising]. yup.. then she said that she gonna terminate my card in march. cause she says its a great month to terminate regardless of whatever month it is. can you believe it?! its MARCH! SIGH..begged dad to help me get my heer card. he refused! must be cause my mum brain-washed him. sigh.. bored day.. sis and her bf coming back from kL le.. sickening. sigh.. my life what.. totally fcuked up.. christmas present... havent brought it yet.. no money.. dad dont wanna contribute to my fund like he promised. sigh. promises promises. is it meant to be broken just like that?!
there are many loopholes around here; 12/21/2003 03:09:00 PM
Saturday, December 20, 2003
there are many loopholes around here; 12/20/2003 10:51:00 PM
there are many loopholes around here; 12/20/2003 10:29:00 PM
erm.. went to town took 174 cos faster. miss my stop.. took all the way to town. then went to skl.. sis was tailing me.. she tot i donno .. lame .. erm.. went to skl.. returned hb her stuff.. but her other stuff are still with me=\.. erm.. went back to town.. ponned piano.. walked arnd. then.. 3+ gave jie her present. yup. hmm.. think im blind. whole day was fcuk shit. sigh. uhm.. then 4+ mum called.. said stuff.. told sis to kick her butt home. uhm.. rotted in heeren till 5+. went ovver to cine for a while. met yilin and pearlyn. went to kovan there. cause pearlyn wanted to go to her teacher's sister's bikini shop. tried on bikinis went back to town.. ate dinner.. came home. helL
there are many loopholes around here; 12/20/2003 10:28:00 PM
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Friday, December 19, 2003
there are many loopholes around here; 12/19/2003 11:55:00 PM
things to do.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/19/2003 11:53:00 PM
hmm.. came back bout 1050+ climb over the gate. then climb to my room(: ok this sound ridiculous. but ya.. i did it(: cos the whole house is lock.. but i found out that my mum is awake. sigh.. anw.. went to watch the 1210 lord of the rings. damn nice show(: planning to get the vcd. but the show ar.. abit dumb leh.. its like they have another choice they dowan to use. abit stubborn lor.. but.. haha.. yup.. erm.. then went to skl. for fun ah.. then step in then step out. less than 10mins. took train to clementi. bus to coronation. changed. then waited for sis tuition to end. it ended like 1/2 hr later lor.. can die eh..=\ erm.. den went to mcs.. ate burger. then went church bout 7. hmm.. sis kept using the toilet.. then changed my sim card to the new 1. erm.. ya.. then.. was lost? haha.. i donno why.. suddenly felt lost lor.. then messaged jie.. but found her in the end.. hmm.. erm.. angie.ber.huiyi.hweeyi.hy's bro.eudora.and my sis was there(: ting* hmm.. then after the thing went to adams with angeline ber and sis. ate and laughed? hmm.. nvm.. till 1030+ yup. kk.. gtg le.. gotta buy prezzie for jie(: winks-
there are many loopholes around here; 12/19/2003 11:50:00 PM
ah... im sick and tired of living le la.. -screams- =\ sigh.. hmm.. watching lord of the ring later. then in the night going in church for some christmas thingy(: dad's going for wedding dinner. mum's working late(:-winks- waiting for dad to bring my allowance=\ gotta go buy book next week. gotta get card today. or i die le. sms overshot le. talktime too. sigh. i can wave gd bye to my hp le=\ haiz.. what is this lorr.. totally fun.. =\
there are many loopholes around here; 12/19/2003 09:15:00 AM
Thursday, December 18, 2003
there are many loopholes around here; 12/18/2003 09:17:00 PM
there are many loopholes around here; 12/18/2003 09:13:00 PM
hmm.. krys birthday(: ting* anw.. met them at far east bus stop. i was 2nd latest.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/18/2003 09:06:00 PM
there are many loopholes around here; 12/18/2003 09:40:00 AM
hmm.. woke up late.. like.. just? hehx.. no time to rush for trng lor.. sigh.. so yup.. go meet the rest for the people for krys birthday den(: hmm.. gotta meet at 11 at far east bus stop(: cool.. hmm.. i gotta buy cake!. help! sigh. and i gotta buy lots of stuff.=\ hmm.. jie's birthday(: ting* and evelyn's and dawn's andcarolyn's.. hmm.. aiya.. forget it la.. i dowan to name it le=\ hehe. sigh.. my mouth hurts like siao. found out that the dentist didnt put the rubber band thingy properly. so.. i think it will come out anytime within this month=\ hahaha.. yup.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/18/2003 09:37:00 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2003
hmm.. went to plaza.. met lee and pam.. went round searching for.. erm.. yaya.. then.. went to city hall. bought things from happy house. erm.. yup. den went for dental appment.. yup.. then erm.. the doctor very smart what.. take out the wire take till the braces seed thingy out i thought he pull my teeth lor.. haha anw.. he seriously dont have any colour sense. yup. red and green hor.. the green ugly like donno what lor.. actually its green not green la.. yup. hmm.. then went to jurong point.. cant find prezzie=\ sigh.. so y6a.. i walk around for fun lor.. yup. then tuition. yup.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/17/2003 10:20:00 PM
hmm.. im like broke now. dad only gave me 20 for 4 days. + krys present. sigh. nvm la.. gg school later.. i think. hmm.. nvm.. im bored. and broke and... sigh.. nvm.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/17/2003 10:11:00 AM
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
there are many loopholes around here; 12/16/2003 11:04:00 PM
there are many loopholes around here; 12/16/2003 10:59:00 PM
there are many loopholes around here; 12/16/2003 10:46:00 PM
hmm.. came back at 9++ erm.. left for town at abt 3++ reached there bout 347. erm.. went to projectblood shop at wisma.. the wallet damn chio.. but ex leh.. 30++ sigh.. then went to bits and pieces. bought thios ring. then engraved mum's name on it.. hmm.. then went around town searching for carnation. yup. cos thats like the only flower mum like. yup. went to taka. to heeren. to cine. back to taka. bought ppg stuff. then to lucky plaza buy flower. then to wisma to collect the ring then to heeren. to paragon for dinner. yup. sigh.. damn tiring. at least i know something.sigh what to do right.=\. hmm.. yup.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/16/2003 10:40:00 PM
lalala.. i just woke up(: today is my mum's birthday.. yep..hmm
there are many loopholes around here; 12/16/2003 12:59:00 PM
Monday, December 15, 2003
there are many loopholes around here; 12/15/2003 02:40:00 PM
hmm.. came back from the hosipital. yup. followed mum there cause she have check-up. yup. big sis had school small sis softball.. left with me=\. sigh.. den cannot go for the outing le.. yup.. sigh.. nvm.. at least i know something more bout my mom le. cannot make her angry le.. sigh..feeling so hopeless le.. sigh..big sis's boyfriend coming over today. from perth. yup. he is a japanese lor.. so cooll.. yup.. he'll be staying in our hose till the end of decenber=\ sigh.. anw..hmm.. going to serene centre to study?? yup.. after packing my rm.. anw.. i got the happy house pig cushion!! but i wanted the fat 1..as in the 24++ de.. heheh.. ok.. guess im asking too much again. anw.. sis finally lend me her ndigi cam.. but low batt leh.. aiyo.. how to take pics lor.. sigh.. hmm.. cousins coming over tomoro. totally sickening. pratically makiing my life worse.. hmm.. anw.. if you wanna go sentosa on thursday.. tell me k.. eat coast oso can.. cos i dowan to go alone.. hehx..
there are many loopholes around here; 12/15/2003 02:31:00 PM
Saturday, December 13, 2003
there are many loopholes around here; 12/13/2003 07:57:00 PM
hmm.. woke up late today.. cause i tot it was 1045 when it was only 745. woke up at 851 instead. called judy to meet me at bp. then started trng bout 945+ erm.. yea.. did 2 rounds blah.. and 2x 150m then slacked. yup. cant take it lar.. think i injured my internal again?? hmm.. by.. erm.. forget it.. anw.. went to skl.. waited for lee to finish band. then went for piano. yup. sigh. didnt go for service again.. sigh=\ nvm.. anw.. i watched meteor garden last nite!! until 3++ k.. sigh.. haha.. dont understand why im crazy over that show..-winks- waiting for mum to get me the m.g 2 yup.. sigh... there are many loopholes around here; 12/13/2003 07:53:00 PM
Friday, December 12, 2003
hmm.. went to school.. erm.. ya.. thats all.. sat at stair case.. cried? sigh.. den went to church. yup. den to town to eat den home. yup. sigh. what a boring day lor.. haiz.. anw.. my blog the picture siaosiao de.. donno why.. sigh.. any nice templates must tell me k.. thankies..
there are many loopholes around here; 12/12/2003 08:21:00 PM
Thursday, December 11, 2003
there are many loopholes around here; 12/11/2003 09:41:00 PM
there are many loopholes around here; 12/11/2003 09:38:00 PM
hmm.. shouldnt have said "gg out tomoro without $$cash" yup. erm.. today.. woke up bout 715. woke parents up. they took their sweet time to change.. my mum was puttingmake-up.dad was putting his guy make-up. haha.. i gotta scream at them donno how many times then they would leave the hse.. erm.. 745. yup. reached skl at 757am. ting* forgot to take my socks $$and allowance='( hmm.. anw.. trng.. was mood-swinging. hyper to terrible to hyper to quiet.. to no mood at all.. yup. then changed out after trng. went to town with hwee.. then ber and hj happily waste my time.. haha.. no la.. jkjk.. anw.. ya.. they tok and tok and tok for 5 mins. then decided to put down the phone.. haha.. 2 mad people. sigh.. [no more haha~ing] anw.. ate at mos burger[ hb pi wo de=\] jkjk. den went to heeren to search for my socks.. they only have the purple de.. dont have the orange and white le=\ my stripes!! sigh.. anw.. walked arnd.. talked quite alot..on the way to somerset. at the traffic light there. saw janice and tiff.. they damn bang(:-winks- yup.. look like grown up le(: yup.. like my older sister. but nicer and chioer(:-ting* anw.took train to khatib..[hmpth.. im so nice k=\] anw.. i was bored.. yup.. den hj & hw came. started taking out mom's earrings. aiyo.. she scream until donno what.. hmm.. yup.. very cute(: anw.. decided to go to causeway point.. then my mood changed form worse to worser.. yup.. den at yoshi.. started crying.. den took was at train station. donno which way i want to go.. so ber.hj.hw.lee went to jE that way. then i decided to go e other way.. but decided not to.. erm.. den started crying again.. sigh.. then e jE train come again.. sat in the bus at the cornercorner.. started crying again.. badly.. yup.. until e guy beside and in front of me walked away.. yup.. so i was at that corner a-l-o-n-e. yup.. then managed to catch the train to newton. then mom.hw.ber came over.. den yup.. tried smiling. but failed?? maybe.. sigh.. anw.. dropped at newton.. was drizzling.. ran after the 171 bus.. then reached my stop le.. started raining.. then took out my skirt to protect my phone&diary. walked home.. then started raining fish and sharks. then i ran home.. fell down. landed on mud.. injured my hip. well its fine de. yup.. parents didnt realise(: hmm.. yup.. then decided to walk.. yup.. den i became luo tang ji the chicken. reached home. nobody open the gate for me.. decided to climb the gate.. then ya.. i fell down.. injured my back(: ting*. sigh.. now.. im dying for panadols.. sigh.. back to different ways of m le.yup. but still controlling. really. i'll try. at least. but i wont garantee? unless.... yup. sigh..
there are many loopholes around here; 12/11/2003 08:05:00 PM
hmm.. finally can enter blog le-winks- anw.. yup.. grounded today. yupyup. wanted to get out of the hse badly k.. but grounded in the end(: im gg out tomoro(: ting** without cash$$=( ok.. dis is lame la.. anw.. cousins in my hse now.. slept quite early though(: yup.. gdgd. they damn noisy. yup. sigh.. anw.. tuition suck la. seriously was crapping. den peied mama to shop for food for the little people(: they bought so much ate so little.. hmm.. let see.. for them.. 2 tub ice cream.root beer.coke.sarsi.4 lays chips. 3 tins of cabuary chocolate.yup. and they only ate 1lays. yup. out of so many.=\.. i think i better(: yupyup.. haha.. i bought milk(: very healthy noe.. and cereals(: and 30 chocolates.. lalala... im on a diet somemore.=\ sigh.. anw.. last nite.. sudden come back of depression. didnt know what i was doing . yup. you should noe what i mean.. sigh.. i need to be lectured by alot of people. sigh.. haiz.. life sucked so much dis days.. back to being depressed again.. sigh..
there are many loopholes around here; 12/11/2003 12:58:00 AM
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
ok. i seem to see my blog and everybody else'es. yup. cos theres this shit temporary error. ok. watever la.. its shit lor.. sigh. anw.. went to watch the elf. yup. its nice. im in the christmas mood now(: yup. hmm..
there are many loopholes around here; 12/09/2003 06:01:00 PM
sigh. i stuck at home. sigh. cos my cousin is coming. tomoro. and the day after. and the whole holiday=\. that means. i cant go to school at all=\ maybe i can. but gotta be home immediately la. yup. highly irritating. i cant even go for trng!! shit. parents just wouldnt let me go! anymore! whats their problem! and they keep saying im stupid. fine la! im stupid what. totally. sigh. no wonder life suck. sigh. and i got to be some extra person when my cousin and sis goes out. im suppose to be looking after them=\. ya. look after thean yeah..=\. sigh. i donno la.. so pissed off now. sigh.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/09/2003 08:59:00 AM
Monday, December 08, 2003
there are many loopholes around here; 12/08/2003 07:52:00 PM
today ar.. woke up bt 945. realised that i was late? ya.. rushed down to meet hb. cos suppose to meet her at 10. took cab to skl. reached at 1040++ erm.. walked arnd.. then lee came.. then bt 12++ was at fitness corner yup. 1245+ hb.pam.yh.cindy went twn. erm.. was at fitness corner alone.. donno why la..started crying as if my cat died or something. sigh.. only had the word "why" in my head. also donno why i cried.. hmm.. maeybe im stupid. yup. maybe theres reasons. but maybe i refuse to accept them as reasons.. sigh.. ok.. this sound complicating.. started sighing again. cant kick the habit. yup. sorry.. then trng. i wasnt in the mood. but nvm la. gotta train ma.. sigh.. then had rojak game. seriously rojak till i can yawn donno how many times in within 1 min. yup. sigh.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/08/2003 07:42:00 PM
sunday
there are many loopholes around here; 12/08/2003 07:06:00 PM
sunday
there are many loopholes around here; 12/08/2003 07:05:00 PM
Saturday, December 06, 2003
hmm i just realised something.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/06/2003 10:01:00 PM
totally not in the mood for anything. sigh.
there are many loopholes around here; 12/06/2003 08:23:00 PM
hmm.. just came back from track camp(: totally rawks?! hmm.. okok.. anything.. nice la.. yup.. fun(: wheee.. hahaha... okok.. nvm.. hmm.. had fun(: didnt sleep e 1st nite.. yup.. but 2nd nite was stupid lor.. yup.. i kept saying that its so early dont sleep yet.. but who fell asleep 2nd lor.. hahaha.. i wonder who.. oh.. and i sleep talk(: yup.. lalalala.. yay! okok.. im mad.. sigh.. yippee! haha.. but what did i say? i didnt dream lor.. sigh..
there are many loopholes around here; 12/06/2003 06:59:00 PM
Thursday, December 04, 2003
hmm.. tiredtired?! erts.. donno la.. hmm.. hope i can wake up for trng tomoro.. its like 8.. yup.. nvm.. hmm.. today.. wanted to go bukit merah itc to collect my ez-link card.. cause they found it.. yup.. so i happily took 961 cos delia told me that they go to bukit merah itc. so i happily take lor.. hmm.. then the bus driver told me that its last stop.. so i happily sit on the bus read my book and all.. yup.. hmm..then i was lost... yup.. LOST!! hahaha.. and i still can laugh k.. hmm.. the route was farrer road.stirling view
there are many loopholes around here; 12/04/2003 12:23:00 AM
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
there are many loopholes around here; 12/02/2003 09:44:00 PM
hmm..dont know what to blog. sis is like desperate to use the comp[as usual] hmm.. lost my neoprints and ez-link.. again.! ok.. this is shit. sigh. bored k..=| think im going to thinkbout stuff=\ wanna give up. sigh..
there are many loopholes around here; 12/02/2003 09:16:00 PM
Monday, December 01, 2003
ahh.. im like chao bored.. erm.. today.. went to school.. rotted for a while.. erm.. lee finally came.. erm.. early la.. then rotted again.. went town to get flowers for lee's granma.. then back to school.. left school at 3++ erm.. went to meet siss at crepes. ate there. sis's treat(: then walked arnd.. she was thinnking bout what to get for her bf for christmas?! hmm.. ya.. then came home.. ran to my room.. started crying since then.. now.. dont ask.. suck la. yup.=\ there are many loopholes around here; 12/01/2003 10:52:00 PM
iratherletgothentoholdontoher.
causeidontwanttopushmyselfanyfurthurthanwhereiamnow.
itoldmyselfthati'lldonothingtomakemyfriendsunhappy.
iguessimwrong.maybeihavealreadydonestuffididntknowidid.
now.ihavefoundoutthatsomehavelikedher.
andso.yup.iwilllethergothantogetmyselfcaughtintheirsituation.
causeihadenough.idontwanttobeinthemiddleandgethurtagain.
well.thisisallicansay.imfeelingrestricted.
nobodytobethereformeliketheysaytheywould.
arethesewhatyoucalllies?orpromises?orboth?
letmesufferthen
[iloveyouboth.and my terrible life.]
ihavelovedyousincedonnowhen.justunawareofmyfeelingsthatswhy.imstillconfused
justconfused.yup.confusedaboutwhetheristillloveyounow.stillconfused.butnowicantbe
botheredle.causeimtroubled.yup.notcauseofyou.yup.causeofthisotherperson.yup.ihope
youunderstand.yup.iloveyou.wouldyoumendmyheartforme?iguessnot.nvm.
[guess i'll be in pain forever.causeofyou2]
hmm.. i think im crazy la huh. words so small.. im angry la. yup. with my dad. he is so great what. yup. that word just slip what. cause my i was chao angry with my is. then it justslipped lor. what has that gotta do with my allowance?! darn. im so damn pissed off le k. must he push me to the cliff just like that?! my life is terrible enough k. whatever la.=\ anw.slept til 1+ this afternoon.went town bout 3+ went to heeren. pass letter to maine. then went over to popular.dont have the book.so went to borders. went to get busted cd with the gift card aunt gave(: yup. then weent to this private sale at isetan for members only cause of mum larh.crowded like nothing. bought nothing. yup. erm.. then went to the dutyfree shop crap. started playing with perfume(: sprayed everywhere. was having this perfume fight with sis larh huh. then tried this j.Lo still perfume. nice(: the beyond paradise de and the miracle de. nice smelling -winks* walked over to far east bought my skirt): hehe. then went home le. waited for that to pick us up for like 45mins+ at the road there. donno how many million empty taxis pass by k. whatever la. so pissed now seriously no mood=\
[ ugly piece of shit. ]
[teary christmas]
[my only wish this year is not to feel the pain in me]
[i kept hugging that thing cause i need one big hug. im still in pain.]
mum's falling sick.
chio mommy not mommy le.
maybe cause im naughty. yup.
maybe cause im on the naughty list.
santa's angry.
i dont have a christmas le.
cause santa's angry.
so no more christmas le.
its gone.
let me cry alone.
no hug. no dream.
just me and my soul and a pool of blood.
[i live my days like that cause never a soul cared]
my [christmas] is destroyed
[ my life is like that. it just sucked]
[everytimeiwanttounbottlemyfeelings.noonewasthereforme.atall.notasinglesoul.ami
supposetobeleftalonetorotanddie..ami?!well.imbottlingupagain.idontwanttodisturballof
you.thatswhyikeptsayingnevermind.butdeepdown.ineedtoletitoutbadly.butiwasntgivena
singlechancetocryitout.toshareitwithanyone.why?!whymustlifebealivinghell?whymustthe
worsethingshappenonthesameday?dayafterdayitwillcontinuenon-stop.iknowmultilating
isnttherightthingtodo.btitseemedlikemyonlychoice.imlostinmyownpath.couldntfindout
whereimgoing.imallaloneinthatroad.noonetoaskdirections.noonetotalkto.itsjustme.me
andmysoul.andapoolofbloodnexttome.amisupposetoendmylifebyjumpingintothatpoolof
blood?ami?whatamisupposetodo?what?!evenifanyonepassbythisroad..theywillnever
stretchtheirhandouttopullmeup..togivemeahugtotellmethatimsaveintheirarms..theywould
neverevenbothertoask.causenobodycaredforapieceofshitlikeme.theywillnever.trustme.
causewhointherightmindwill?who?!sigh.]
[im lost in my own path]
[yougavemehelleverytimethebillscomeback.butthistime.itsdifferent.yougavemehell
everyday!today.youhurtmetoomuchle.saidthingsineverthoughtyouwouldsay.cursedmelike
itwasfun.butlook.doesntmeanyoulookdownonmeyougottohurtmyfeelingslikenothingelse.
imhumantoo.notwhatevershityouthinkiam.ibetiwaspickedupfromthebinwheniwaslittlerite.
iamnotyourdaughterrite.youhatedmesomuchdoyou.butwhy?itriedtodosomanythingsto
pleaseyou.butthisiswhatigetinreturn!hell!whatamitoyou?shit?rubbish?abitch?!]
hmm.. eh.. if anybody have hp to donate.. donate to me k.. laopok 1 oso can..
oh.. and if anybody have that laopok motorola peanut phone charger. give me too k.
[ihavedonesomanythingsforyoucauseyouweremyfriend.
butyouhavehurtmeagainandagain.howcanievertrustyouagain?]
[uncontrollable tears. irreversible time. sigh]
- homework.
- socks money
- diet plan.
- go for trngs
- buy skirt
- earings.
- motorola peanut laopok hp charger
- presents(:
[ithoughtwhatyousaidtheothertimewouldntreflectonyourself.
butnow.ithinkyourelikegivingmethesamemedicineafterall.
justsayit.youwantmetoendupinhell.butyouknowwhat.
imalreadyinone.causemylifeisntlikeyours.sostopgivingmehell.
andyou.youhurtmesomuch.nowidontevenknowwhotobelieveanymore.
itslikeidontknowwhotosharemyproblemswithanymore.
whenimfeelingworsethanever.youwerentthereformelikeyousaidyouwould.
whatisyourpoint?what?]
-winks- or was it latest.. hehx.. anw.. went to plaza sing. ate at pizza hut.. krys treat(: erm.. then.. played games took pics.. yup.. then went to cine.. took neos(: chio(: ting* erm.. then delia geneveive and krys went to take neos. me and suhong went to buy prezzent and cake. cake was from marchie.. wahhh so bang k.. hmmpth. anw.. sang song at graffti cafe there.. took pics then went over to taka.. sat at mos.. met germaine.. erm.. then walked arnd.. they went to far east. i stayed in taka alone. then went to cine waited for hb's show to end. yup hmm.. then sent her to boon lay.. then came home. yup. i was singing in the rain lor(: lalala.. ok.. buy.
[imtryingtoremembereverymomentwehad.
maybejustthemomentsihadwithyouandwithout?hmm..
imlikeconfusedagain.thepastfloatsbackintomymind.
pain.sigh.]
[why cant i forget who you are?]
[iflifeiswhatyouwantfromme.thenwhydontyoushowmewhatitis.
youdothingsyouarehappywith.butyouhaveneverconsideredmyfeelings.
ifyoudontlikeit.justkeepittoyourself.thereisnoneedforyoutobetruthful.
itwillhurtpeoplesfeelings.itsagift.nottrash.butyoualwaysthrowitaside.
whatamitoyou?rubbishtoo?
[sigh.iflifeisalwayslikethat.iwonderwhydoiwanttotalkmyselfaboutit?
ijustneedalisteningear.thatsall.idontwanttobealoneranymore.
iwannabehappy.notdepressed.ineedtotalktosomeone.
butijustdontknowhowtosayit.whydoesithurtsomuch.
thatwordkeepfloating.buticant.ijustcantdoit.idontknowwhy.buticant.
now.imconfusedagain.somuchproblem.somuch.toomuch.sigh.]
[youliedtome.youthoughtididntknow.
butyourewrongyouhurtmyfeelingsalready.
haveyoueverwonderedwhy.ibetyoudontevencare.
iknowyouhatemesomuch.butwhatcanido?
icantcontrolyou.itsyourlife.notmine.takecare]
You're depressed in a hidden way. You don't want
anyone to know what you're truly feeling, so
you usually put up a act to throw people off.
As far as everyone knows, you're as happy and
perfect as you need to be. No one needs to
know.
How Depressed Are You?
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hmm.. but the best part is.. my dad left the house without leaving his share of the present on the table..lala.. so we have no money at all.. hmm.. now.. after borrowing from my maid.. hmm.. have bout $10 yup.. plus my socks money.. bout 20.. aiya.. i think should be can la.. yup.. hnmmm.. ok.. going town later.. actually.. dont even know whether im suppose to meet.. erm.. nvm.. guess i'll talk to myself another day.. but i need to know which part of school is quiet! sigh.. nvm.. anw.. i finally watched finish the meteor garden le(: yippee.. watched till 4++ yesterday.. hehx.. my sis bf is like here le.. looked younger than his age leh.. hmm.. okok.. im waiting for my mum to get me the part 2.. lalala..
[needed a listening ear]
[iflifeisallaboutgroundingmeandforbiddingmetodostuffiwantto.
thenwhatdoyoucallthat.ineedfreedom!dontlockmeinthecageallthetime.
illsuffocate.really.imyourdaughter.notyourslave.orprisoner.
ineedfreedom.sigh.ifthisiswhatyoucalllife.iratherbeananimal.thanyourdaughter.]
[is this what you call too much freedom?]
myloveforyouwaslikeapileofshitoyou.
iamnotevenwhatiamtoyou.imlikeinvisibletoyou.
justadmitit.statethefact.youdontevenloveme.
isntthatyourpoint? [sigh.]]
[mylifeisnotwhatitwasmeanttobe.butyoumadeitsoundasifitwasshit.
stop.stopcontrollingmewillyou?!thisismylifeandimolderthanyou!
stopcallingtoaskwhereiamandgettingmetopushmybutthome.
hey.,thisismyproblem.mybusiness.stoppokingyournoseintomylife!
youshouldlistentomeinstead.iholdallyourresponsibilitiesforyou!
andhereiambeingtreatedlikeyourservant!stopaddingpeopleontoyourcontactlist.
thenirritatethem.youbullshitter.youdestroyedmylifejustlikethat!]
[dontwannabecaughtinthemiddle.youbotharemygoodfriends
sigh.pleasedontbelikethat.ithurts.sigh.]
monday black.
tuesday purple.
wednesday green.
thursday orange.
friday pink.
saturday blue.
sunday mixed.
18th of every month. rainbow.
11th of december bochap.(:
[iwaswaitingandprayingforittobetrue.
onecametruebuttheotherremainedasadream.sigh
whymustitalwaysbelikethat?lifenotgoingthewayweexpectittobe.
itjustgetsworsedoesntit.sigh.afterthispersonisback.
lifeisbacktowhatitwas.depressing.again.andagain.sigh.
hell..livinghell.again.sigh.butimgladihadfriendswhostoodbyme(:
butstilliwantmydream.mywish.sigh]
anw. ya. im bad-mooding.. ithink. sigh.. my cousins are staying over tomoro..=\ sigh.. terrible.=\
[wheniwastherecrying.alliwantedwasahug.iwasjustwaitingforahugtomendmytears?
maybe.sigh.ineverknowwhatimthinking.maybeitsbouthermaybeitsboutherher.
butwhatcanido.ihavenothingagainstthem.sigh.imjustupset.maybebacktodepression.
just.maybe.yup.sigh.cantseemtosaywhatifeellikesaying.feelingsorestricted.
thatswhyibottlemyproblems.maybeidontevenhaveproblems.maybemyproblemisme.
maybethatswhyimalwayssadandupset.maybebacktobeingdepressedagain.
allthismaybesjustpopsout.butwhichisrealidontknow.sigh.maybesighingisallicando.
well.yup.theproblemisme.ikeptgivingmyselfproblemsineverwanttorethinkabout.
maybeimjustinkingboutwhytheskyissoblue.maybeallthistinkingaretheoneswhichhurtme.
butwhatcanido?icanonlycry.itmakesmyeyesswollen.butidontseemtocare.nobodydoes.
imnotworthyoflove.maybethatswhyimalwaysalone.inthedark.wheresthesun?
idontseemtoseeone.maybeiminhell.nofriends.nomom.nosisters.justme.
aloneagain.sigh.butseriously.ireallywantahugtomendmytears.thatsalliaskfor.
buteverybodyseemtowalkawayafterknowingwhatshappenning.notknowingthatimcrying?
ya.sigh.maybeishouldjuststopcryingeveryday.causethatswhativebeendoing.
hidingbehindamask.crying.allthetime.withoutanyoneknowing.
thatmeans.imcryingtomyself.fine.ishall.ifthatswhatimsupposetodo.iwill.
well.iguessimstillinvisibletoallofyou.yup.toallofyou.sigh
[doyouknowhowmuchiloveyou?maybeidont.butidontknow.
imjustconfused.justoneconfusedperson.maybeidontevenloveyouatall.
maybeyourejustmygoodfriendafterall.
sigh.butitslikeimnothingtoyou?causeyouonlyhaveherinyourheart.ihavenothingtosay.
imstartingtofeellikegivinguponyou.giveuplikingyoule.sigh.takecare]
hmm.. blogger is spoilt.. so i write here 1st.. den copy paste when blogger can be used(: anw.. i hate my hair.. yup.. seriously.. the lady have no skill lor.. still say this other hairdresser have no skill.. she seriously think she damn good.. but well.. shes not.. sigh.. so now.. its back to clipping my hair=\.. damn k.. so ma fan=\. sigh.. anw.. nothing good today la.. skipped tuition.. dad allow(: yup..
[whenitriedforgettingyou.youkeepmakingmethinkwhy.
yup.mademeconfusedandall.andfinallydecidedtonotforgetyou.
causeicantfindareason.andidontknowwhymyreasonsdoesntworkanymore
guessicantforgetyouatall(:]
erm..
1 mommy
2 niece
1 sister-in-law
few sisters
friEnds
ting*
-confused- anw.. oh.. our excursion and outing totally nice what.. totally lor.. yup.. excursion was turf city.. totally nice place to explore lor.. ran the cross country route.. hmm.. nice programme. den did sprints yup.. hmm.. outing was in school lor.. very fun leh.. hmm.. explored alot of place during the outing lor.. hmm.. let see.. the road behind the e-block[warm-up] then the canteen[drills].outside the gym room[work-out].
fitness corner. g-block corridor and the canal[4 rounds] and the road behind g-block[sprints].. hmm.. nice outting. yup.. den went town.. mum says im grounded.. but they have to choose the date and time to ground me.. hmm.. fun.. hahhaa..
[i think].hmm.. then bukit merah jln[i happily never stop there cause i donno] den all the way to chinatwn.clarkequay.suntec. then donno where. then the guy told me pass long time ago.so i stop at kallang. lee says to wait for her cos shes on the way to my rescue.ting* hehx. so ya. i waited. hmm. then reacched school. started rotting. hmm.. then we kinda talk non-stop.. haha.. totally cool.. kept talking bout.. er.. just lots of things.[same topic la]. hmm.. yup.. talk till bout 4 +++ i gtg. she gtg. yup. but she have some bu she de. hmm.. i understand. sigh.. anw.. went to get my ez-link card. yup.. hmm.. thank God i got it back(: yup.. but they destroyed my leaf! tsktsk. nvm.
[ifonlyasmilefromfriendscouldmendthetears.
but.allthisarejustlies.causesmilescannevermakeonesmaileagain.
itwillonlymakehercryevenmore.
onlyahugcouldmendthetears.
onlyahugandtheirwordsfromthepeoplewhomyouwantwillmenditforyou.
onlyallthiswillmendmytears
amiaskingtoomuch?!]
[ahh..lifesuckedagain.invisibility.idontevenknowwhyimgiventhis"super"power.
thepowertobetotallyinvisible.sigh.iamdead.onceagain.thinkillbebackto[gnihsals].
yup.guessiwill.ijustgottosetitbacktothesuicidingmood]